I dont know if anyone would be reading this but i thought it might be a good space for me to talk about my experience so far and hear some insights from anyone whos willing to share or join in the discussion.
Learning to ride a bike has always been a dream of mine since i was a young lady but it did not happen. Conventional Asian parents- girls shouldnt ride a bike, bikes are too dangerous. Naturally, i obtained my class 3 license 17 years ago and have been driving ever since.... thus the dream of riding a bike drifted further into the back of my head until recently!
It started ok at the beginning.... The beginners thrill of getting on the bike.. and learning something new for the first time... it was all fun. As i proceeded further into the course... what i thought would be a really fun thing for me started to give me stress. The strict rules and regimental way of learning unconsciously gives me a form of stress. I remember fondly of the days learning my class 3 manual license under a private instructor and had sooooo much fun every lesson.... Also most of my life i grew up and studied overseas where learning felt more free and flexible. I had no idea being in a regimental school environment would cause me the stress i'm currently facing.
Failing subjects do make me feel lousy about myself from time to time... so far the most i had to repeat was up to three attempts for obstacles like the Pylon (the first 2 instructors, believe it or not... didnt explain the technique needed to get through the pylon. All they said was "dont look at the cone" and ask you to pick up the cone everytime you knock down a cone. At one time, there were 3 classes sharing the plank/pylon.... the que was really long.... each time someone knocks a cone, they park the bike, pick it up, go back to their bike and move off.......
It also doesnt help on the days when you meet instructors whom i personally feel lack a sense of passion in their job- they give no detailed instructions, they would do the bare minimal by giving the class a demonstration and leave it to you to trial and error, hoping you get it right by the end of 100 minutes. There are also those whom would give in-constructive feedback or make unnecessary passing remark not related to the lesson instead of giving constructive feedback to help correct your mistake as you go. Its days like that.... that really puts me off. Trainees only focus should be to receive constructive feedback and constantly correct themselves to master whats needed to get through every obstacle. All the disrespectful remarks, authoritarian attitude feels uncalled for and counter productive for learning. It makes the experience unpleasant when it doesnt have to be this way.
Its unfortunate there isnt an option to select a fixed instructors time table... or hire a private riding instructor to allow myself to learn in a way i find would help me better. And i do get that it is what it is, i need to learn to accept and deal with it.... Yesterday i had one of my worst days so far and went home just feeling like crap and wondering why i needed to take crap comments for something im paying for and wanting to do for the fun of it...... Decided to take some time off from the lesson to recharge myself enough before going back for lesson again.
Perhaps you had or am facing similar feelings, would be great to hear from you guys?
Thank you for reading.